Not at my best

Panic rising in my head

I can’t lay in my bed

What’s that stiffness in my neck??
With all the stress I feel like a wreck
I am not at my best,
I need to go somewhere and rest.

I am done with the rain
Wish I could book a plane
just go some where
To unclutter my brain

My brain power has gone sour
It gets dimmer by the hour
My conscience is pretenses
Will not help my mental denseness

I think maybe rusting daily
Has made me all weak and paley
My heart is racing fast,
How long will this feeling last??

Will it turn out if I churn out
Or quite simply will I burn out

I must rest now in my quest
I am simply not at my best





 

Lost!!!

The phase where in u lose every feeling

the feeling to love

the patience to bear

the F**kin sense to be fair

when you cant find peace to stop your frustration

nor can you gather the power 2 shun your aggression..

its like your losing your self…

feeling hallow from inside….

there is nothing that your left with…

No thoughts to express

No feelings to suppress

No anger to control

No temper to hold

and no story to be told

U have no words to vindicate your stress

its only you all alone in the mess

its like an empty feeling without any healing

feels like i am losing one something

Losing the first thought in the morning

Losing what eased my pain through the day,

Losing the tab on what happened yesterday

Losing what made the weekends fun

Losing what kept me on d run

 

M losing the confidence in me…

its like the feeling u have wen u have lost the key….

Don’t  know what the future holds

Not like anybody is ever told….

lets go through this phase of life..

sure to find the truth beneath the lies….

its not like i am a hopeless optimistic…

but sure don’t fall in the league of pessimists…

though numb is what life has become.

lets face it as it comes